Indescribable

Guitar Teacher!

2008-05-01T22:37:00.003+08:00

Today's is a uber boring day! Practiced for Saturday's service and played Starcraft. OMG! Starcraft is a super fun despite the substandard graphics compared to nowadays ultra realistic graphics! I could play with Jem through midnight man! Thumbs up for Blizzard! Can't wait for Starcraft 2!

anyway..

I've decided to expand my skills by getting a professional guitar teacher. He is none other than the amazing Paul Danial! It's worth the bucks for sure.

But...
Why do i need a professional guitar teacher for? We impress from far and impact at close. I want to dream big for the future. I don't want to be stuck here for the next few years! And also ministry wise, for sure, in the near future, there will be good musicians whom i will be leading. I need to expect myself to be more competent, in order to impart the spirit. It's a spiritual ministry after all!

I'm anticipating for my first lesson. I even got a homework already! Haha!

Wish me best man! :)

God protects them

2008-04-20T22:32:00.005+08:00

[God Protects Them]

God protects those who are for him. I was reading up some end times stuff last night and was amazed at how loving my God is. An omnipotent God yet loving. I'm blessed to have Him in my life! This week was a rather busy one but God was faithful and He stood by me. All things went smoothly and i saw God's providence and protection upon me. Most importantly. Company.

God was my company this week. Feeling lonely isn't a choice for me now. But i thank God for his comfort. It reminds me of a simple illustration of a shepherd and a friend. Psalm 23.

Thank you, Jesus.

2008-04-16T00:26:00.006+08:00

Well here are some stuffs that i like....

Her head:

Her body:

Her full figure:

Just like her:

So hot! OMG!!

I would die if it's someone like this:

Ahhh! No no no!!!!

I WILL DIE FOR THIS!!!! OHH GOD!!! :

THIS IS MADNESS! THIS IS LEAH DIZON!!

Her ethnicities are Chinese, Filipino and French. Oh goodness!

FIRE FIRE!

2008-04-16T00:13:00.003+08:00

I've a suddenly craving for firepower. I wanna burn/shoot someone!!! LOL HAHA!!

Oh God, i wish i live in America where i can buy guns. I don't mind shooting at anything! Especially irritating people!(Watch out! >:( ) Hehe! I want to shoot crows too. Singapore crows are so disgustingly big nowadays! They even attack people!!! Scum of all birds! (Gosh, i'm so random)

anywayyyyy...
I thank God for all the tests and trials. Which means... HE IS LISTENING TO MY PRAYERS :) :) :)
And God, i'm very very greedy! I want double portion, ehh no, i shall change my mind. I WANT QUADRUPLE PORTION!! Can? :P
Well, i'm trying to make a point that, walking right with God will bring you overflowing JOY! YAY!

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! :) :) :) :)

HEHEHE! HOLY SPIRIT POSSESSION!! !@%!#$^!@#%!% <-- not vulgarities, it's speaking in tongues. Lol, enough crap. Goodnight!

100th Post!

2008-04-13T20:42:00.004+08:00

Hello! This is 100th post!! Yay!! HAHA! Well. Things had been going very well since the day my parents left. Things are well over there in Sweden too!

Recently, God had spoken to me in the most unlikely manner. Those are based on different aspects. Worship Ministry, Building the Kingdom and Personal life.

1. Worship Ministry

Spirit Vs. Skills?
This is a very tough topic. Of course there are no definite answer to it. If you ask me this question, i shall post one to you. 'Are you in the Kingdom's Business or the business of the World?'. Our Kingdom-minded behaviour and attitude will determine the answer for it.

From my point of view...

Skills: Skills are wonderful, you need them. What if a musician who doesn't even know what a triad is? Wouldn't it be horrible? It's a total incompetency. Skills make things easier and allow you to minister with lesser stress because you will definitely know that everything that are technical are in your hands.

Spirit: We are doing God's work. Doing God's work without God, wouldn't it be an irony? We all serve God with God in the picture. As a musician, especially myself, i tend to find technicality as a major part of the music. But to a worshipper or a music listener, the lyrics, emotion and spirit of the song is more important. We've gotta be more open-minded and also more spirit-led. Spirit can be discern easily.

Skills can always be taught but spirit can never be. You can only catch the spirit. And if you hunger for it, God will give. Desire for double portion! Ask God to take away your pride.

At the end of the day, you know what you do pleases God the most. We can't serve 2 masters. It's either God or the World.

Praise and Worship atmosphere
Stage ministers should set the standard and the 'level' of the spiritual atmosphere during services. Every Service should be one that change lives and one that is filled with breakthroughs and the overflow of the Holy Spirit. There are many factors of stage ministers that will determine the 'level':

-Humility.
-The worship attitude.
-Closeness with God.
-Spirit of Excellence.
-Desire

There are still many factors but these are one of those that are essential.
Example: Let's say that the congregation spiritual atmosphere 'level' 100, the stage minister should set a 'level' 101 to deliver a powerful praise and worship.

Everything can work. Even an organisation. But what makes the Church different from an organisation is the 'Spirit' Factor.

Worship ministry is about touching lives, changing every individual from the inside out and directing them to God.

2. Building the Kingdom
Recently, God spoke a lot about this. It gave me such a strong zeal to give more. Ever wonder why people say,'Invest your life for God!'? Just flip to Matthew 6:33 of your Bible. It's about doing God's business, the Kingdom's Business. Logically, we will eventually get more than what we give. Because God is a loving God!

We give our best, God will take care of the rest. Waiting for God's timing is the most important. By our sinful nature, we will definitely be last minute if we know when God is coming. That's when willingness and faith comes in. Do you still want to invest even though you don't know when God will bless? Honestly, God will bless you for sure! God doesn't want to spoon-feed us.

To simplify, do you want to serve with all your heart or not at all?

For myself! I want to serve! With everything i have. I want to look far! Having a long-vision is biblical. I want to see myself discipling more guitar players and leading a group of spirit-filled musicians who wants to serve God with all their lives. Each of them giving their individual best to advance the Kingdom of God. The Kingdom of God must grow! And it starts from myself! Be the clean vessel that God uses :)

3. Personal Life
A desperate and hungry man will eat anything and will do anything to find it.

Same for our growth. If we are desperate and hungry enough for growth, we will do anything to grow! Be it fasting, serving with more fervor, taking care of a younger believer, being a leader etc.

Growth comes when we decide to step out of our comfort zones. Because you will feel stretched.
People who have short-fervor syndromes, non-kingdom-minded mentality, short-vision-ed, spirit-filled but does nothing and those who does everything but don't understand what are they doing, SHOULD BE GODSMACK.

Where is your sense of urgency! It's not about being able to grow very fast! If your direction is the same as mine, you will realise that our personal life will determine every single thing that we do for God, vice-versa

How to bring more people to God? Answer is, live a credible and fulfilling life! It's not about going around shopping centers or bus stations to evangelize again and again. It's good. But it's quite retarded if your life isn't walking right with God and you keep on doing it.

Our life is the most important, if i'm not walking right with God, i will stop serving and get my walk right before i continue to serve. I don't want to sabotage the congregation or my people.

How often do you pray as if God holds every single second of your life and He have total control over it? Prayer is so important. It's a communicating with God. As a new believer, we all learn to pray. But please, don't stop praying. Even if you're a 20 year old christian, still do pray for little things like, bus arriving on time and etc.

When the rubber hits the road, there will be many stumbling blocks. Are you strong enough to withstand all the opposition? Your walk with God will determine it.
:):):):)

Alright, it's time to do and stop talking about it already! The time is now! Charge! GO GO GO! ADVANCE ADVANCE! I WANT TO BE SATAN'S TOP TEN ON HIS WANTED LIST!! HAHAHA! BYE BYE!

Nostalgia

2008-03-25T22:03:00.003+08:00

Today is 25th March 2008, which means my parents are leaving very soon. Just got a scolding from Daddy on msn last night, saying that i wasn't really giving much attention to them especially when they are about to leave for Sweden. I was rather defensive, giving a reason saying that i've got test commitment and church stuffs. Then i was wondering, how can they be such a low priority in my life.

It has been some time since i chatted with them and have a decent meal together. Everytime is all those troublesome and bothersome things going on which ruin my mood when i'm with them. I can say, it does sucks alot and it irritates me to the core.

I don't know about you and i don't wish to compare. I'm a very people-oriented person and of course, i do like the presence of people. What else lesser when those people are my parents, who watch me suckle the pacifier(FACT: though i didn't ever did one before!) when i was a baby, all the way till present day. They meant alot to me and still mean alot!

I'm not upset, just disappointed. I can't give even that little time for them when they could be there for me. And worst still, 5th April 2008 is very close. I'm not sure whether will i cry on that day.

So many forms of love, this is the toughest to comprehend and it's not within your simple knowledge. For husband and wife, we know it clearly, it's very evident in movies and TV dramas. For God's love, you can find it in the Bible. For this mutual love between parents and child, you don't see it so often anywhere. It's difficult to express and out of our comfort zone to show that 'Love'. Maybe Time and Presence are the best gift.

Okay, it's giving me cramps in my heart. Goodnight.

Kramer!

2008-03-11T00:34:00.005+08:00

Some pictures of my new blessing! :)

MOST UNFAITHFUL BLOGGER OF THE YEAR

2008-03-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

I'm declared the "MOST UNFAITHFUL BLOGGER OF THE YEAR!". Okay, maybe not that bad because i'm quite sure many people are like me too!

This week was a great week. God blessed me, financially-wise, abundantly. And a miracle happen! I was with Jeremy at AMK hub and i decided to deposit the $80 my mum gave me on that day in to my account. After putting the money into the column, i'm chatting away with Jeremy. The part came where the screen shows the confirmed amount of money deposited was $90! I was overjoyed! And astonished too! Praise God. I was praying very hard for financial because the week before, i spent alot of money!

Anyway! Praise God again! Things are going very very well for me! Thanks YWAM1 for the warmth CG welcome when i first went for the CG! Thanks for the card too! Haha! I can't wait to start serving for Praise and Worship slots again!

Alright i'm going to sleep! Goodnight people!

What a day!

2008-02-28T02:19:00.004+08:00

Had an extremely undesirable day in school! So tiring due to the subject schedule. But anyhow, had DMM today! And it's quite funny that my first meeting with YWAM is a DMM. Anyway, it's a really refreshing one. The worship is especially ministering as i haven't went for any CG or DMM for 2 months plus already!

Daniel taught a very good teaching called, "10 signs of spiritual dryness". This teaching got me reminded of my purpose of serving God. I'm godsmacked by something he said. It goes,"When was the last you said,'God, I love you'?".

I can't wait for my first service with YWAM. I really pray that God will use me in this new ministry like how he used me in my previous. I really just got to have a really sensitive heart towards the holy spirit. I believe those who are set apart for him are people who loves what he loves and hate what he hates. Basically, love God, love people and hate nothing but sin!

I LOVE YOU, GOD. GOODNIGHT!

MOVED!

2008-02-26T22:10:00.003+08:00

I've moved to AMK and this is my 3rd night. Currently, i'm at Civic Center's Starbucks using wireless. Haha. Because my house doesn't have connection as yet. Life is pretty slow going since i moved to AMK.

Well, this is a week where a whole lot of transition is taking place. Firstly, moved house and secondly, transferring from North to YWAM. Talking about north, i really will miss North alot. It is a place where i grew up spiritually in. Of course, i can't be clinging on older things, i should really look forward and hold on to things that God have for me in the future. Perhaps DK was right, this is just the beginning, now is the time where i really hit the road.

Okay, Weiloong is back, i better go off or else he will punch me(just kiddin :P )
P.S. I purposely put this GREEN because he lovesssss GREEN!

BYEBYEE!

BLOGGGGG!

2008-02-22T21:24:00.003+08:00

Oops, seems like i've not been blogging for a month already! But anyhow, things are going pretty fine for me. School is alright. I've been doing alot of self-study and revision which is important for my coming Common Test in March! I really want to score very well for it! I shall put in an extra effort. Well, as each day passes, i'm really very close to 'O' levels.

anyway, i'm moving to Ang Mo Kio this sunday! And more to come. This week and next week will be a whole lot of transition going on! I pray that God is with me!

Okay, i'm feeling queasy. Gotta get some drink and rest. Goodnight!

Redemption!

2008-01-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

Redemption playing on 16th February @ Rouge. $18 per person. 1 free drink.

Contact me if you wanna get the entry.

Mr. Big, Chris Daughtry and Guns N' Roses...

BMC ACADEMY!

2008-01-15T21:13:00.000+08:00

Today is day 2 in BMC Academy and it's great! I really love the environment! And OMG, the POA teacher is damn good. She taught extremely well yesterday. Seems like the 5k odd was pretty worthwhile afterall! Enrichment classes were pretty entertaining too. It's like a "remedial" class for students who are not taking the subject, which is being taught at the same time slot.

And PRAISE GOD! I've got 7 contacts from my school so far! Can click with most of them pretty well. Yesterday, met this guy call Tony. He is pretty damn funny man, you will love hanging out with him if you can stand spamming of vulgarities! HAHA!
Just got to know this Japanese girl from my class today. Had lunch during break with her together with Calvin and 2 other China students. She can speak Japanese, English and Mandarin! OMG! I'm so amazed and ashamed! Because her Chinese is soooo GOOD!!
And also got to know a girl from Burma, she speaks with an American slang(because she was from an American International School back in her country). I didn't know she was from Burma as she doesn't looks like one!
There is this China guy, he is 20years old. Guided him in english yesterday and he was pretty comfortable with me. I'm so glad he understood my mandarin! HAHA!

I really look forward to see a BMC Academy CG formed! Add one more school to CG08? Haha! Sherman is so so so happy about school life! :)

Loving it.

2008-01-12T01:31:00.000+08:00

Great. I went for BMC Academy Orientation yesterday. There were many errors regarding my transfers to the Dhoby Ghaut branch and i went to the wrong orientation. But they are pretty nice to sort out the mishaps.

Orientation was rather boring. The Principal speaks really soft! I can't really hear him clearly. I almost doze off, but i was trying to be polite. DM was pretty funny!
And omg, the VP is just so gay and bimbotic. He is pretty difficult to stand if you are someone who hates to listen to people who speaks repetitively! However, overall, everything was pretty good. Doubts cleared about timetables and so on. And i thank God that my future class will not have gangsters!! Anyway, Calvin is my future classmate!! HAHA! So i'm going to live life with him for the next 10months! BMC CG Amen? (:
I just can't wait to study! 2 more days!! Mr 'O', here i come!

Oh, recently, i was suggested to take up music theory exam. I think i'm going to buy some books from grade 1-5 music theory to study. Maybe i can take a grade 5 exam this year end or early next year. Heard that a grade 8 in music theory, i can easily get a job in almost all music school in Singapore depending on the instrument that is going to be taught. I shall think through more about it first though.

Thinking is so emotional and mentally draining. I love to think but thinking too much kills my positive point of view about things. OKAY! AND I THINK I SHALL SLEEP! HAHA! GOODNIGHT! (:

I love you.

Fulfiling day!

2008-01-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

Great day! GREAT DAY!

Today is just a wonderful wonderful day! Woke up at 7.30am. Went for a jog, did 3.2km. Pretty good, i clocked 17mins30secs. I am going to jog again on thursday!

Got breakfast on the way home. While walking back to my block, the song "Trading my Sorrows by Darrell Evans" kept playing on and on in my head, which was rather random. After eating, bath and did quiet time. AND GOD SPOKE! GOODNESS!

I was reading the Book of Psalm. I'm very encouraged by Psalm 30:5. It's like how God favour us as His child! He takes away our sorrow and gives us joy. Just complete was that! It was just like a complete rip off of that song which was playing on and on in my head while i was walking back home! God is just so real in every single day of my life. My wonderful DADDY!

So come on, rigid people, who says not serving on the FRONT LINE makes your less better? Less spiritual or even less sensitive to God's voice?

Can you even believe that there are people who serves on the FRONT LINE and aren't walking right with God? I don't know who you are. But if you are reading this and have problems with your RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD, please... Love the Lord first before serving Him. Treasure your relationship with Him.

Great.

2008-01-07T17:13:00.000+08:00

Sandy: LOL! Your birthday right!!! HAHAHAA! :x

Luke: Haha! That would be pretty interesting. MIDS and BMC. MIDSBMC CG. Sounds like some sort of manufacturing company! :D

Mila: Thanks! I will. I'm perfectly fine now(:

Ohh, sorry for my inconsistent blogging. I shall start to be faithful with my blogging. Alright, Blogging tomorrow! PROMISE! :)

Finally!

2008-01-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

Okay! I'm sorry! What a long halt! Been a long long time, since i last blogged. So many things had happened since the last time i blogged.

Firstly, i would like to Thank God for everything. The people he sent to assure me, who understood me and listens to me. Thanks, DK, Daniel Leow, Yong Le, Jeremy, Jian Hao, Sandy, Yuen Han and ******!

For those who don't understand my situaton please keep opinions to yourself. As the bible says in James 3:7-10..."All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of DEADLY POISON. With the tongue we praise our LORD and FATHER, and with it we curse men, who have been made in GOD's LIKENESS. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. MY BROTHERS, THIS SHOULD NOT BE."

I rather someone who ask me about me than assume about me! I know the price i've got to pay for my every actions taken, but does it comes with ridiculous assumtions, undeserved body gesture and eye contacts?

Well. I LOVE GOD ALOT. He is first in my life and will always be. Basically, he had changed my life from the inside out. I wish i could do more for God but unforseen circumstances can happen, anytime. I WILL SERVE BECAUSE I LOVE GOD. But when you're pushed to the limits of death how can you continue when God haven't send his Deliverence? I'm still waiting though. The deeper i fall, the deeper He will pick me up and the deeper the relationship will get.

ULTIMATELY, CHRISTIANITY IS FIRSTLY A RELATIONSHIP! NOT A SERVICE! OR IT WILL JUST BE A DAMN RELIGION.

As a christian for 3 years, i cannot say i'm very secure with myself but i can say with confidence that i know, i belongs to God and God lives in me.

Alright! School is starting soon! 14th January which is like a week away. I'm all ready! Can't wait man HAHA! Been thinking about setting up a CG in my future school if possible? Will see what's God's plans for me!

I don't need to convince anyone to believe me, but just please understand me.

It's important!

2007-12-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

Well, firstly, i really want to thank God for 2 person in my life. They are none other than... WEI SONG AND DARYL KANG! They are the ones that saw me through almost everything in my christian walk since 18th dec 2004!

Wei Song, well, my first shepherd! He is someone who builds up my foundation as a christian and trains me up to be a CL! I'll never forget that Woodlands is my land! I OWN IT!

For DK, he is the one who brought me to know God and taught me G Em C D! Really love him alot! Always encouraging me, in my walk with God. Someone who trusts me alot! If i have no one to go to, i will go to him! Let's win woodlands together!!

I really love the both of you!!! :):)

Today was rather interesting! Something really brighten up my day!!
I was walking home with Weiloong and we happen to see this cute little dog! Anyhow, i managed to realise that it did not have any tag on it. So i was rather concerned, and i managed to get Weiloong to go after the dog together with me. The story goes... Both of us tried incredibly hard to convince the dog that we are harmless. Tried to corner him and he ran away!!!!! It's soooo cute!!! HAHA!!

Finally! We succeeded! I used Famous Amos cookie as the bait! :P HAHA! We tried calling SPCA but they have already ceased function by that hour so i decided to bring it to the pet shop(which is quite far away). The dog indeed followed us!! And i gave it a name, "Coffee"(due to it's fur colour).

Something scared me really bad! It tried crossing the road by itself and nearly got knocked down by this car!!!! :(:(:( so i carried it on my arms instead. When i entered the pet shop, the owner mentioned that it looks familiar but could not totally recognize it. A while later, his wife(i think so) came in and mentioned that it belongs to "whoever he/she is". So she called and it really belongs to someone!! What a relief man! I felt super happy!! Over the MOON!! HAHA!

And in the end i know why it responded when i call it "Coffee". Because it's name is "Rooney" which somehow rhymes! Haha! The owner of the dog was super super grateful!

Well, i kind of miss the dog though :( But NVM!! I WILL GET MY OWN NEXT TIME!!!(IF MY PARENTS EVER ALLOW!!)

Okay, this suddenly got to my mind. I always believe in, having a good worship team in church. And the people in the team should be very close with God. Many people might think that praise and worship is just "part of the programme" but i strongly believe that it is very important! Pastoral minister is important! But worship ministry is too! Music can be used in an evangelistic manner too!!

Alright haha!

I really thank God for the harvest! The unit had 5 converts yesterday! The harvest is here and ready!!! ARE YOU?!?!

Okay enough, i'm tired already! Goodnight! BYEBYE!

GOD I LOVE YOU! :)

X29!

2007-12-14T00:21:00.000+08:00

X29! My passion is renewed in this camp! About winning the WORLD FOR JESUS!!! Camp was rather crazy! In the good way! I'm very touched by a couple of people. People like, Alvin, Qing Xiang, David and Ben. They are very sincere in their responses to JESUS during altar calls. I REALLY LOVE THEM ALOT! (I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!).

Oh i think, as guys, we shouldn't be afraid of saying "I love you". Haha. It's just one simple thought. I really love this family of God!! Well, i don't have enough words to describe the camp though. You've got to experience it yourself!!!

And..... All objectives are met in camp! Many people responded! That's great! But how do you want to get that passion continue to burn for Jesus? Think about it, what's responding but not keeping them in your heart and work them out!!?!?!

2007-12-07T01:58:00.000+08:00

OMG i want a puppy!!! I WANT! I WANT!!!
OMG i want a puppy!!! I WANT! I WANT!!!
OMG i want a puppy!!! I WANT! I WANT!!!
OMG i want a puppy!!! I WANT! I WANT!!!
OMG i want a puppy!!! I WANT! I WANT!!!
OMG i want a puppy!!! I WANT! I WANT!!!
OMG i want a puppy!!! I WANT! I WANT!!!
OMG i want a puppy!!! I WANT! I WANT!!!

I don't know what else to say more than this! I'm so hyped about getting a dog!! Hope my parents allow!! Even then, they are not going to be in Singapore for the next 3 years!! =D

Just take my heart,

2007-11-22T02:06:00.000+08:00

Mr. Big, Mr. Big, MR. BIG! I so so so so so so....love their ballads

Just take my heart 
It's late at night and neither one of us is sleeping
I can't imagine living my life after you're gone
Wondering why so many questions have no answers
I keep on searching for the reason why we went wrong

Where is our yesterday
You and I could use it right now
But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go
I don't have the need for it anymore
I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

Here we are about to take the final step now
I just can't fool myself, I know there's no turning back
Face to face it's been an endless conversation
But when the love is gone you're left with nothing but talk

I'd give my everything
If only I could turn you around
But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go
I don't have the need for it anymore
I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

Determination 4 Reaching Everyone!

2007-11-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

You must be feeling lucky today man! The reason is, I AM BLOGGING! It's like finally!

But that's not the point! >:)

Well, i'm really glad and grateful for whatever God had given me and done for me. I'm also very encouraged by Qing Xiang a.k.a. David, Ben a.k.a. Stephen and David Sentosa a.k.a Daniel!! Thank You for giving your utmost commitment to North B and always standing on the front line with me!!

Met up with them this week(although David Sentosa a.k.a. Daniel isn't in Singapore but anyways), went through the 1st lesson of Word-Centered Church Series and set some really high standards for them. It's tough and it's a really high standard for them. I didn't wanted it to be this tough but i've no choice where we shouldn't wait for anyone anymore. It's just running forward, no more reversing or running in circles.

I'm overwhelmed by their responses though. It's respectable when they decide to deny themselves and carry the cross. This is called "True Biblical Man". No doubt.

Faithful
Available
Teachable
Spiritual
Obedient
Nothing less.

Alright enough of ministry. Haha!

I feel very comfortable recently, like as if i'm on a beautiful vacation(I KNOW I'M STILL IN SINGAPORE!!). Life seems to be smooth sailing for me now. But.. I've got a feeling there's gonna be a storm soon. Well, a big one! My premonition aren't that good though.

The thing is, we will never always live a life that's problems-free. It's a simple but harsh reality. When the rubber hits the road, you just got to know what to do. Avoiding isn't a way out. It's just like a robber who thinks he can escape punishment by hiding... The police will track him down, eventually.
What's the solution? Hmm? I always rely on prayer. God always come to the rescue right on time! (: Call me a God-Freak! Yeah so what! I'm proud to be one!

Talking about police and robber. There's this really good question for Christians.
"If Christianity were a crime, how many evidences are there to prove that you are guilty?"

It's humor(YES I KNOW!) but it's very true. Outreaching, teaching of the word, spending your time with God, Bible study, serving in ministry...so on and so forth. All of it are the "evidences" that prove that you're "guilty of Christianity".

Alright, shall just stop here. Goodnight people! (:

Rockstar.

2007-11-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

Listening to some songs that i was into when i was in my "prime" time in my guitar playing. It brings me back to my DREAM! To be a ROCKSTAR and play on the biggest stage in the world! In front of thousands and thousands! Haha! It's really a BIG DREAM!

Dreams dreams dreams...

God gave us a nice and well-planned dream too! Perhaps, it's a vision?
For those who are uncertain, it's something called "The Great commission".

How about fulfilling that before fulfilling other personal dreams? I'm sure on the way of fulfilling the Great Commission, God will fulfill ours!

I came to realise that i had gone through many many many many many dozens of test by God. It's not easy to get through all those. The amount of commitments in terms of flesh and blood. Well, i'm investing in something which is eternal. It's an investment that i will never incur a loss.

SO WHY NOT INVEST MORE?

Done deal!

2007-10-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

YAY! Finally! Things are more or less settled. Instead of Bedok or Woodlands, i'm going to live in Ang Mo Kio! WITH MY GRANDMOTHER! My parents said i could take care of her! Hahaha!! Hopefully moving in before 2008 or else it will be difficult to adapt.

And well, my school is settled too. BMC Academy will be my future school. They have 90% passing rate for GCE 'O' Levels(which is high!). But i've got ridiculous school timing which is 9am to 4.30pm. I'll be having 2 one hour breaks! It's fun though cause it's in town! So i'll be in town everyday except sundays!

Anyone who mugs around town area please tell me! I don't want to mug alone! :(:(

Haha! My mum is so funny. She asked me to convinced my grandmother to follow me along to Sweden next December. Hopefully, i can get a free ticket! Singapore Airline man!!! WOO!

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME, ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD!

Living the life.

2007-10-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

It's not tough doing the process now. It's tough now itself! Well, i shall just call it the "parting time". It's the time where you have to make whole loads of decision and confirm them. All the mental and emotional impact i'm going to receive these 2 months will be tremendous. It's bitter, sweet and sour at the same time. How do i come clear and comprehend them all?

????

2007-10-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

I might not need to live alone in Bedok! Might just be living with my grandpa in Woodlands!

Discipline!!

2007-10-29T01:57:00.000+08:00

DISCIPLINE...
DISCIPLINE...
DISCIPLINE...
DISCIPLINE...
DISCIPLINE...

MORE DISCIPLINE!!!
MORE DISCIPLINE!!!
MORE DISCIPLINE!!!
MORE DISCIPLINE!!!
MORE DISCIPLINE!!!

Change of lifestyle.

2007-10-28T16:10:00.000+08:00

Whoa, there's alot of changes next year.

I'm going to study in BMC Academy next year and my parents are moving to Sweden. So i'm going to live ALONE in one of my aunt's house. Should be the one in Bedok. It's going to be a total change of lifestyle. My parents are even thinking of selling my current house in Woodlands and move to East or Northeast area and rent it out for 3 yrs until they come back.

It's soon a lonely year ahead of me. :(
I always wanted to live independently but i never expect it to happen so quickly.

Well, next year's dec i'm having a free ticket via SQ to go to Sweden for as long as i like to visit my parents!!!! :) :) :) FLYING ALONE!!! WOOO!! EXCITED!!

But..my main concern now is my O levels and my daily lifestyle next year.

GOD!! Break my fear and make my faith!!!

$$$$$$

2007-10-25T12:52:00.000+08:00

This is bad! :( I bought another skinny. This time a grey one...

STOP! I have too many jeans already!

I caught a cold!

2007-10-23T00:02:00.001+08:00

Yahooo! Guess what?! I JUST CAUGHT A COLD! LOL!

I went downstairs just now to have a walk. The main agenda is to, GET WET! Well, i met God somehow. I felt comforted in the midst of the rain and the cold wind.

The pillar that blocks me from the cold wind felt like His warmth arms that embraces me.

The shelter that blocks me from the rain felt like His love and His presence with me.

God, i love you! (:

Haha i got an acoustic guitar today! It sounds really nice though it's only $120! Thank you God, for the blessings today!! (:(:

3 years alone.

2007-10-20T02:19:00.000+08:00

It's confirmed...

My parents are going to Sweden for 3 years. Well, it's gonna be 3 years alone in Singapore. Life's gonna get either duller or more enjoyable. I don't know whether can i bear to leave them for 3 years though every holiday i might be flying there(alone!!) to visit them.

Parents and child always tend to have friction. I know they still love me and i still love them alot. After all, God created them too. No matter how i disappoint them or how they disappoint me, we still love each other.

Well, good friends are hard to find, parents are harder. I'm glad i have them in my life :)

(: yay!

2007-10-19T04:34:00.000+08:00

Excited as ever man! God is moving! I can hear the sound revival!

I want to grow! Remembering the days when i was just a new believer, i was so excited to grow! Nostalgia. Well, i'll bring that to the present and make it reality!! (: I'm living for the future! Let's all be futuristic people yeah?

anyway, i love PATAMON! So cute!!! AHH!
I love cute stuffs alot. I know it's not very normal for a guy to be like this. LOL! But who cares anyway!! (: (:

Alright...Goodnight (:

Such a JERK!

2007-10-17T15:39:00.000+08:00

I hate being the jerk in situations. I'm just stuck, when everything is targeted towards me and then to the others. In the end, i will become the bad guy. I need to stay true to myself! Come on, SHERMAN! Know who you trust!! I don't want to be a broken backbone...

In the midst of everything, i hurt people or rather, had hurt.
People whom are important to me...What am i think!? What am i doing!?

I didn't change.

I'm just confused...

No matter how many times i try now, i know it still can't be reverse. I had done it and it's different now. All i see is a bright glass plane getting shattered. No more yesterday.
All i hope...that tomorrow will be a better one.

I still can't purge all these out of myself but i know without all these situations, fear and experience could not help me to grow as a person. Living in pain and then overcome it, makes me more like a MAN.

If any of you think you are hurt, i hurt much more. Right to the center of my heart. I still know and believe that God is nurturing my maturity. I just need to be more easy and understanding in situation and also learn to make my stand which is best for me and biblical. Assuming isn't gonna bring me anywhere.

I'm sorry.

Had enough.

2007-10-13T02:07:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite Mr. Big song. It's with a nice bass intro. Ask me for it on msn if you want it...

MR. BIG - Had Enough
Ain't like any other day
Finally comes a time to decide
I won't spend another day
Stuck here in the same old bind

I can see myself as much too strong
To let this thing go on so long
It ain't a case of right or wrong
I'll put myself back up where I belong

Chorus:
Oh-
Can't you see
I've had enough had enough
I've had enough

I don't forget too easily
You're the one who told me a lie
Now you know you're free to be
Anybody's lover but mine

I can see myself as much too young
It's not too late to stick to my guns
I'll take it right back to square one
When you turn around to look for me
I'll be gone

Bridge:
Why can't you see what you've done to me
I'm not too sure of it myself
The answer lies in a whole new beginning
The second time around

Big words

2007-10-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

There are many big words that can cause people to stumble, feel inspired, get pumped, encouraged or discourage.

20 examples i came up myself...identify them yourself. Both first person and third person point of view are involved.

"I wanna give up."
"I love being who I am."
"No point livin.'"
"This feels great!"
"Win the Youth today, win the World tomorrow!"
"God is changing my life!"
"I'm a loser."
"I hate being myself."
"Thank you!"
"I love you!"
"I know i can do it better!"
"You suck man, totally!"
"You can never succeed, give up."
"All these are worthwhile!"
"Argh, i've just wasted my time."
"My life have no goal."
"You mean alot to God and me!"
"I'm always left alone..."
"You are a Child of God!"
"I'm always the one causing all the troubles.."

Please people! Choose the right phrase and mindset in your life! Cherish your life and also other people's life. God saved you and loves you alot:)

Losing.

2007-10-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

Night cycling was great. Reached home around 6am this morning and then fell asleep right after bathing. I felt much fitter though :) :)

I always have many bad feelings recently. Things turned dark easily. Will just have to stand stronger though. It's quite true that most of the time, i'm on the losing end. I'm the one that stand still and then lose out. I tried hard to convince myself.

I know that God is my security. I shan't care about the outcome.

The ordinary battle

2007-10-09T00:02:00.000+08:00

This time, it ain't the ordinary battle. Not the usual one. Not the one that can just simply be defeated by faith. It's tough. I will endure.

Win Woodlands. Period.

Love

2007-10-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, somethings matter alot.
Things which are small to me might mean important to someone else.

I really gotta learn to understand and feel for people. Basically, i've got to love people more. I feel lousy when i just can't be like Jesus. It's so irritating. Occasionally, it comes to a point where i hate it when it comes to modeling His' character. Such ungrateful brat...well...

It will take time and effort. Though I won't like it, God always give the best for me and i know it's the "best of the best-est". All those issues, are no longer issues but breakthrough points!!! I want to be a loving brother, shepherd and a CL!! This cannot continue...i'm destroying myself.

I really pray that God will mould me. I don't want to be complacent about it. Remind me... remind me!! What done can't be undone. The most i could do is to do it to my best the next time.

God, please, please please...throw all those "junks" away from me. I hate them!

All must be stopped! I WANT...
BREAKTHROUGH!!!
BREAKTHROUGH!!!
BREAKTHROUGH!!!

Tired

2007-10-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

I'm tired! Shall blog tomorrow instead! Promise! :)

Math Paper!

2007-10-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU GOD! THE PAPER IS SO EASY!!! :) :) :)

exams!

2007-09-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of my exams! Though English and Mother Tongue are over. I ain't very confident for tomorrow's paper though :(

GOD YOU NEED TO HELP ME!!

I really hope this week pass really fast.

Things are getting so blur recently. Everything that i've done aren't contrasting to the results. It's like running in circles. I hate it! Sometimes i just feel like giving up....well. Thank God, it's just a feeling. I'm convicted of what i'm doing. In fact, anything that i'm doing in this lifetime, there's a conviction. I don't want to do for the sake of doing it! Seems like most of my relationships with people around me deteriorated. It's so screwed.

I SHAN'T BE OVERCOME! I WANT TO BE A CONQUEROR THAT OVERCOME ALL PROBLEMS! GOD HELP ME

Blogging

2007-09-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

Anyway, i gotta blog every sunday only. :)

Haha, i think recently i get jealous easily(random)

BYEE

Things made new.

2007-09-23T16:31:00.000+08:00

God make things new.

2 Riverside converts yesterday! God is really good. :)

Brought my 2 sheep(s), David and Joshua, to eat Pisang Bakar @ Far East Plaza on Friday. Really good food HAHA!

There are so many happenings in my life recently. Things changed, come and go. Feeling nostalgic of many things, putting up false front. But all these are moulding me for tougher days and i know it clearly. God loves me, He wants to give me the best of the best.

He really does make things new :)

Hope Church Singapore 16th Anniversary!

2007-09-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

Urgh the guy who was suppose to sell me his amp today, con my time!! I reached Kallang(1hr away from my house) already and he went MIA!! I waited for more than an hour for him! URGHH! Forget about it...

Anyway...

Hope Church Singapore 16th Anniversary! Happy BIRTHDAY!

That was yesterday @ D'Marquee. Was a really tiring day playing for 2 services! Reached there at 7am in the morning to get prepare. I'm really privillege to be serving along with the rest of the musicians in this big event! God indeed is very faithful in Hope Church Singapore!!

Worked with the Hope Bangkok worship team yesterday. They were really friendly. Sometimes the communication was abit tough but it's the common vision in God that pull us together. This reminds me of a story in the Bible, "The Towel of Babel". Haha!

I really pray that God will use me more in this area of my ability and gifiting! :) :)

Big D! Blackstar!

2007-09-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

Wow! I have alot of happenings to blog man!

Firstly, this week i spent 480 bucks on guitar gears LOL! Jesus, forgive me! HAHAHAHA!
I got a Subdecay Blackstar Distortion($250) and a BIG D Overdrive/Distortion($230 2nd hand)!

I spent a long time to decide on whether to get the Subdecay Blackstar Distortion at City Hall today! HAHA. Well, i got it and it sounded terrific! WOW! Worth the bucks man! I got the BIG D from Ebenex music. It's recommended by the guy who served me there. Worth the bucks too! Original price is $320.

Yesterday service was abit disturbing for me. Well, it's because i don't feel good. I even wanted to skip North CLM and Youth CLM to get a break off. DK wasn't there so i spoke to David instead. He told me to settle with God first.
I went to starbucks to settle it all out. I was touched by God...
I misinterepted God. Acts 27. A chapter in the bible that i can identify with. Read between the lines, there are biblical meanings behind it.

After that i went to North CLM(i was late, DUH!) and then after that went to Youth CLM. And during the worship, Bruce went up to prophesy about something which hit me to the max. Awe-strucked man.

I brought it all on my head. My faithless faith had brought me down the pit. But i thank the Lord for his comfort and deliverence! He is the rock, my refuge, my stronghold, my strength, my shield, my saviour and my Father. Nothing could take his place. It's his blood. His death is more than enough for me to serve, to love and to forgive. :):):)

Thankyou, God

Letting go.

2007-09-06T01:12:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm online! Been busy for the past few days. Haha.

Last sunday went to wild wild wet! Had fun!
I'm packed man! Monday is Anniversary practise... Had BBQ on Tuesday. Then, Metamorphosis on Wednesday. I think i should study on Friday! Need to catch up on my work.

Well, i've been feeling rather stress recently. Sometimes it's just difficult to let go on something. Haha okay, shan't talk about it anymore.

I'm contemplating whether to get the MI audio crunchbox or Subdecay Stupidbox. I've tried the crunchbox personally. I like it! But the stupidbox have more tones and also the name is cute LOL! (Imagine naming a product you made, DUMB, STUPID, IDIOT, CRAP, NONSENSE etc.) HAHA!

Anniversary dress code theme is PUNK ROCK. Haha. I'm suppose to wear a white shirt with black skinny tie and black skinny jeans with buckled belt! Haha. Cool eh? It's gonna be really fun man! 15 september @ D'marquee!! The Hope Bangkok worship team is coming too! Gonna have a great time praise and worshiping!

I'm SO SO SO EXCITED!! :D

SHOP SHOP SHOP

2007-08-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

Haha finally online! It's such a tiring day! Haha!

Kinda fun today. School had teacher's day celebration! The cool thing is that i was pushed into my ex-class, by some of them. Then told me to play guitar! Hahaha! Eventually my good friend was in class playing bass, together with another friend playing acoustic. So, i played More than Words(impromptu). So funny! My voice went off key!

After that my ex-form teacher came and say i played well and also joked that i'm losing my voice! Haha, well, i told them i ain't a singer! LOL!

Ahh i'm tired, shall blog more happening stuffs on sunday night or monday night :)

Leather pants

2007-08-29T02:08:00.000+08:00

I am thinking of getting a leather pants! \m/
Should I? >:)

Green tinted sixties mind

2007-08-27T07:54:00.000+08:00

Redemption - Green Tinted Sixties Mind(Mr. Big)

Lossa mistakes. We used the jamming studio's instruments(honestly, it sucks :P) and tempo slight off. The bass is outta tune lol! But we had fun anyway! :)

Skinny jeans!

2007-08-27T07:49:00.000+08:00

Ahhh i definitely love both my black and white skinny jeans. LOL. Seems like i'm abit crazy about it. I wanna get another black one! I really have to stop getting jeans HAHA! Maybe just another 3 more? :P

Two steps behind!

2007-08-26T18:02:00.000+08:00

Walk away, if you want to,
Its ok, If you need to,
You can run but you can never hide,
From the shadow that's creepin' up inside you.

There's a magic running through your soul,
But you can't have it all...

Whatever you do, I'll be two steps behind you,
Wherever you go, And I'll be there to remind,
That It only takes a minute of your precious time,
To turn around,
I'll be two steps behind.

Take your time, to think about it,
Just walk the line, you know you just can't fight it,
Take a look around, you'll see what you can't find,
Like the fire that's burning up inside me.
There's a magic running through your soul,
But you can't have it all..

There's a magic running through your soul,
But you can't have it all...

Whatever you do, I'll be two steps behind you,
Wherever you go, And I'll be there to remind,
That It only takes a minute of your precious time,
To turn around,
I'll be two steps behind.

A decision

2007-08-26T01:46:00.000+08:00

Should i go to Sweden with my parents for the next 2 years or stay in Singapore? It's a tough decision. GOD HELP ME!

HELP HELP!

Don't think so much

2007-08-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

Please for those who are reading, don't think so much about the previous few posts! They are words, if you understand, so be it. If you don't, just thrash the thoughts. If you think i'm in some kinda trouble, i would tell you that i'm not. I'm OKAY! COME ON! I'm not angry just...Okay haha!

YES! I got my white skinny jeans yesterday! It's like, FINALLY! HAHAHAH! Went walking around Bugis to City Hall with Alex, Alvin, Keith and Leonard. It's a fun day with them! Haha!

COOL! Today was wonderfully great! I left my house without any cash. I only realise, when i reach Yio Chu Kang MRT station. Service was great! The sermon preached was impactful. I really need to have a stronger worship life. I can never bring myself to believe that God is just this close but it's a FACT and a TRUTH. HE IS CLOSER THAN YOU THINK! Fear have been a barrier for me in many areas in my life. It's time to counter-attack!! Breaking through from fear will lead to complacency(it's true, think about it). Don't lose it. Keep the vision.

Everybody will have the times of their life. Sometimes you might just fall into pitfalls, sometimes you'll be lost in the desert and many times you'll lose track of your directions. All these might happen but COME BACK STRONG AND STRONGER! It's never too late to find a way out. God never give dead-ends. NEVER AND NEVER. BELIEVE ME and BELIEVE HIM

Cool

2007-08-22T15:12:00.000+08:00

It's pretty cool in school today. Read books for 4 periods. Well, my friends wondered why am i so quiet today. In fact, i'm so engross in my book that i didn't care what anybody else was doing HAHA! I learnt that laughter can enhance your digestive system and also that Coke is counted as one of the fizzy drink with little caffeine. There are so many other fizzy drinks written there that were like few times more caffeine than Coke! They are all not allowed in Singapore i guess! Haha! Hmmm, but Red Bull is allowed. It's really energizing! I just drank a can of Red Bull and i feel less restless! HAHA!

Actually it's quite an ordinary day today! But i know God is with me so i should be joyful!!
:):):):)

Long long way to go

2007-08-22T14:53:00.000+08:00

I've got a long long way to go.

Before i can say goodbye to you.

I've got a long long way i know.

Before i can say goodbye.

To all i ever knew,

To you.

Don't give up on me.

2007-08-21T00:30:00.001+08:00

It ain't gonna be a midnight promise that's gonna break by dawn.
I wouldn't give up even if you would.

Nothing gonna come between us.

There's still a long long way to go.
It is only the beginning

I'm gonna use all my might to save it,
even if all else crumbles.

I don't want to be the

BIGGEST FOOL.
*I know you feels the same.*

2007-08-20T07:45:00.000+08:00

I kinda like this song. It's by Def Leppard from the Adrenalize Album. My dad used to listen to Def Leppard alot too.

Have You Ever Needed Someone So Bad
Here I am, I'm in the wrong bed again
It's a game I just can't win
There you are, breathing soft on my skin, yeah
Still you won't let me in, so come on

Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Baby let the moment take your heart away

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone you just couldn't have

Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad

And you're the girl I gotta have, I gotta have you baby, yeah
There you go, midnight promises again, yeah
But they're broken by the dawn
You wanna go further, faster every day, baby
But in the morning you'll be gone, and I'm alone

Every dream I dream Is some kinda rash 'n' reckless scene
To give such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time don't ever come
For me you're still the one
Damned if I don't, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
Have you ever wanted someone you just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard, yeah

A relationship that died.

2007-08-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

It's dead.
Someone killed it.
I might not be able to bring it back.
Maybe never.
But i won't forget anything.
Even the whole world falls, it'll still be attached to my heart.
Gone through the best.
And now the worst. Period

Backstabbers

2007-08-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

I don't get why some people just wants to get to your back and stab hard rather straight to your front.
To be honest, i'd rather want a knife stab right in front of me to my heart than one from my back...
These people just act as if nothing had happen when they caused such a huge mess and made situation filled with mendacity and fraudulence. I know what i'm doing and what i'm up to. Even if it's bad one, it's not up to you to exaggerate situations and implement pointless points.

Psalm 109
1 O God, whom i praise,
do not remain silent,
2 for wicked and deceitful men
have opened their mouths against me
they have spoken against me with
lying tongues
3 With words of hatred they surround
me;
they attack me without a cause
4 In return for my friendship they accuse
me,
but i am a man of prayer.
5 They repay me evil for good
and hatred for my friendship

I'm extremely disturbed. Be happy if it is so. God shall be my comfort.

Consistency

2007-08-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

Slept for 8 periods in school today(about 4hrs20mins?). Haha free periods!

CG was fun today, had the usual crazy forfeits. The one today is called, "S delicacy"(S=Sherman HAHAH!).
Ingredient: Koko Krunch, Milo powder, Brocolli Soup, rice w/Salsa, tomato and Barbecue sauce.
Well, to be honest. It tasted like "CRAP" but it smells like Pizza?!? Really! Ohh man! Haha!

Was thoroughly refresh during CG today and today seems abit different! I suddenly felt like i grew up already!! Probably my birthday released my mental block.

Shall blog more happening stuffs tomorrow! Nights.

So sweet!!

2007-08-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

School is pretty normal today. Just maybe a little tired.
Oh God, caught a flu bug!!! :(

Had a sweet surprise today though!! (: (:
Actually suppose to have meeting 4.30pm. Apparently, DK changed the time to 7pm. We waited for him until around 6.20 and i got his sms regarding his whereabouts. He mentioned he's at Woodlands Ave 7(which is somewhere near David's place), and he tell us to find him there. So Joshua, Yuen Han and i went over to find him, as he mentioned there's a coffee shop nearby. I went along without feeling weird or whatever.

When we reached the bus stop, DK was there. He seems pretty uptightly in a weird fashion which he usually doesn't. As we walk to find the coffee shop, he started telling me about being on time and tell me to reflect about it. So yes, i did.

Then we couldn't seems to find the coffee shop and ended up infront of David's condo. Then Joshua mentioned about cutting through his condo to find the coffee shop. Out of a sudden, he push me into the condo and the rest of the group were inside!! They started singing the good ol' birthday song.

YES! I KNOW! I'm Punk'd by them! Yeah, i am touched though (: The whole meeting thing was a scam! Hahaha!

Just wanna say...THANK YOU GUYS! (:
and also, i wanna thank this one person. You know who you are...Thank you (: (:

2007-08-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday SHERMAN!

More Than Words

2007-08-14T15:40:00.000+08:00

I've got a feeling that tonight is gonna be a wonderful night...Don't ask why.

Anyway, love this wonderful acoustic ballad by Extreme.(yes, Extreme composed it, not Westlife)

MORE THAN WORDS
Saying I love you
Is not the words
I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

It's like a fantasy

2007-08-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

I'm bloggin at weird timing about weird happenings.(i think so)

I didn't really sleep saturday night, was awake all the way till sunday 10.30am then i slumbered. Haha. It's magical, it feels like the other night, very similar. Actually i thought i would only experience it once, which is that night but it happened again! :) Wow!

It's just happy happy happy!
I could break Guiness World Record anyway(i bet none of you understand.)

WEDNESDAY!!

2007-08-12T02:00:00.000+08:00

ANYWAYS, THIS COMING WEDNESDAY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT DAY OF THE YEAR!!! :) 150807!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!

2007-08-12T01:21:00.001+08:00

HAHA! Wanna thank God for those people that gave me something today! Yeah!

Today's a happy saturday :D A short and sweet day!

Newb event today was super tiring!! The mega games ran here and there, oh my! Well, did hosting and it's fun fun fun! Anyway, Joan did well hahah, at the least of my expectations. *claps

Also, wanna thank DK for being a listening ear to me. He is more than a leader. He is like a friend! THANKS DK! :) Alright exciting days ahead of me!

For he is good
For he is good
For he is good
For he is good
For he is good

Operation BEAR!

2007-08-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

Had OPERATION BEAR today!

Was games station master. Haha i find it difficult to speak loudly when it's super crowded with people! After Operation bear, went to watch Rush Hour 3. Haha it's a nice movie! Jackie Chan and Chris Tucker. Man! Rush Hour Classic! HAHAHA

Went home straight after the movie, i'm so tired man! Anyhow, i realised today's date is 090807! In sequence!

Well. Happy Birthday Singapore! 42nd Birthday! :)

Family

2007-08-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

Yes, without God we are nothing but....

Without family, you're close to nothing in life. No matter how much achievements you have, without family there for you, you ain't nothing. Though you don't lose anything physically but you lost something which is close to everything.

Well, i'm lovin' my family. I love my everyone in the whole family tree. :)

YAY

2007-08-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

EXUBERANT!

Haha went to Yishun today study with random people. I did structured essay questions given by David Hoe. Well, i scored pretty bad! Haha! My History answering skills really dropped man!

My day isn't really interesting but it's enjoyable. Simple! I love this kinda simple things that make you happy.

Coming to think about relationships, i think i should really save it for the first and the last. HAHA, although i'm not confident in it. But God had planned for me already, so i shall be secured! :) :) :)

I shan't

2007-08-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

LOVE ME
I read a note my grandma wrote Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat And he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand But a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none But I loved your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to And live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

I read those words just hours before My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church When me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry All my 15 years
But as he said these words to her His eyes filled up with tears

This song never fails to put a smile one my face. So i shall be happy :)

Mega Insomnia

2007-08-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

Well, i didn't sleep last night!! The whole night was wonderful :)
Went to school as usual though! Had math test today and i almost doze off during physics lessons, SO BORING! DO ASSIGNMENTS AND ASSIGNMENTS!!

Actually i'm really really happy this morning! The day started out right! So so so right! Something really bad happened during the last 2 periods of school that twist and turned my mood. I was extremely aggravated by this mother tongue teacher(i had a shift). Wrongly accused me and pass judgement about me. Somemore, i already explained to her clearly over and over again! Misunderstood; confiscated my phone as i was smsing an important sms in class. I did her test after school and kindly requested my SIM card back but she just won't budge!!!!! I went straight to the Discipline Master to report about the whole incident. Well, he's much much better than that notorious mother tongue teacher. After that some stuffs happened too together which made me really down. :(

I remember the verse of the day this morning: Psalm 13:5-6!
I need help! But i just can't take those huge sudden pressures, i need some air! I am extremely low when i left the gate of school, not because of the incidents. JUST.... :(

My day started out right, i was even smiling in the train this morning, but it ended out wrong.
Today, sorrows are like by-product of happiness

I'M REALLY DOWN!
GOD HELP ME PLEASE!! :( :( :(

Polarbear

2007-08-05T20:05:00.000+08:00

Okay i shall re-post the instruction of the game: POLARBEARS
since she says no one would understand what's she typed LOL!

Instructions:
Everyone sit in a circle. The game master would then say,"whole town sleep!" so everyone will have to close their eyes. Those who peek around will be disqualified! Game master would then need to appoint a guru. The person who is nudged by the him/her will be the guru! :D The guru would thn open his/her eyes to see the appointment of the POLARBEARS(i think baby polarbears are so so cute! Random!) :) :)

The game master would start to appoint the POLARBEARS. Number of POLARBEARS depends on the crowd's density. After that, ask the guru to close his/her eyes and then again ask the POLARBEARS to open their eyes to see each other. Finally, the game master would then say, "whole town wake!". Of course, everyone open their eyes! :D

The rest of the people not appointed as POLARBEARS or guru, will be the hunters! :) Then they will have to start the massacre! HAHA! To be honest, i don't know what's the conclusion of this game! HAHHAHAH

Nothing at all!

2007-08-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

I did nothing today, nothing happened to me today, nothing will happen if i did nothing today and today is nothing at all.

Well, today is a Chill off Day @ home for me. I didn't study as usual. Haha. Forgive me! I need a rest! :D
Was planning hosting for next week's newb event with Joan this afternoon. Haha, she's so comical! I don't seems to find girls that are as comical as her! LOL! And i learnt a new game! It's called Polarbear! :)

Instructions(directly copied from the msn conversation):
so mayb everyone's sittin in a circle , then erm .. and everyone will need to close their eyes and anyone who peek wil be disqualifiedtell 'em that ure appointing a guru then u just nudge that person or somethin lik that to signal that person tht he/she is a guruthen u ask e guru to open his/her eyes to see the appointment of the polar bearsthen u u go round and appoint the polar bears . number of polar bears will depend on how many ppl there is . then ask e guru to close his/her eyes and ask e polar bears to wake up and see each other. then u say ''whole town wake'' and everyone will start accusing who's the polar bear . the ones not appointed are the hunterswhen e whole town wakes , someone need to start to accuse someone say for eg , i dun like gal A . den i accuse her of being a polar bear. den ask the rest if they want gal A to die . den if say , 5 people raise up their hands , galA will die and gal A will say if she's a hunter or polar bear . but if she's e guru , she only can say she's a hunterthen , mayb accuse two other more ppl and later ask e whole town to sleep agenand ask e polar bears to wake up and decide on who they want to be deadmaybe the polar bear think that boy B is too talkative or suspect that he's e guru , they can killl himand when whole town wakes , u will thell boy B that he's deadguru's job is to kill e polar bears.

When i read it, i feel like laughing! Don't ask me why! HAHAHAHHA!

Tired

2007-08-05T02:46:00.000+08:00

I'm tired! Though i have no reason to say that! Haha!

Well, today went to cuppage earlier to prepare for DK's birthday stuffs.
We celebrated his birthday for him during North CL huddle, i'm sure he's touched! (I even wrote a song for him!!) HAHA! Also, thanks Ezekiel for the acoustic guitar!!! :)

After the celebration, went to eat cake at Cafe Cartel with Yong Le. I wouldn't reveal much about our conversation but i'll just want tell him here that
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!
NOTHING COULD BEAT GOD DOWN TO THE GROUND!!

I'm inspired by today's sermon! That some of us are trapped in our own prison where we condemn ourselves. In fact, God sets us free already! So why remain being negative!?!? :)
Break all Negative thoughts and Fears within you immediately! It will spread like a contagious disease! Get rid and replace it with the Truth! :)

Anyways, just got to listen to the recent ESS(the official 1st time i played alone as the only electric guitarist) recordings. I am quite amazed by the way God move in my life. I have a long story.
As i really wanna play guitar since i was a young believer, and slowly God blessed and expanded my skills. And i got to play in the worship team, so on and on. I'm even privillege to play for church anniversary which is approaching soon. Saying all this, it's not because i want to show off and promote about myself, but it's about how God doesn't short-change His people. When we fulfil the kingdom's will, our desires will come to pass in His ways. With all these, pride and glory doesn't even worth a penny. They are just worthless nonsense... It's all about Him! :)

For all you've done, i'll praise you

Influence~

2007-08-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

I'm still contemplating whether should i go for F.O.P. or not. Haha, see my mood. :P
I LOVE SOYA BEAN! RANDOM LOL

Anyway, something to share:

Influence
Well, this word is gigantous and power. Many feels that only a LEADER could influence, the answer is yes. Leaders SHOULD influence but... anyone could too! Influence shall not just be ascribed to leaders. Yes it's true that "Leadership is influence"(John C Maxwell), while i come to think about it, ANYONE OR ANYBODY HAVE ALL THE POWER TO INFLUENCE YOUR LIFE! Does friends influence you? The answer is YES(most probably)! And they aren't leaders(title)!

The thing about influence is that it's awesome, you know, when you got influence in the way you love it and so on. Also, when somehow or another, you are not compelled to be influenced.
BUT the key thing is whether is it a "Bad" or a "Good" influence...

Judgement between what is "Bad" and what is "Good" would be tough(REALLY!). People all differs. Let's say you see a bunch of gangsters, most probably they will feel that are they influencing each other in a "Good" way while some might think it's a "Bad" influence. It's also about the "Point of View"! Meanwhile, be slow to judge too. So mishaps would not happen.

OK! This might makes us want to find out what is the "gauge" of influence(what's "Bad" and what's "Good"). For myself personally(maybe not your opinion), what is "Good" will be, The basis of the Word Of God being the core influence. Yup, that's why i mentioned it's about the "Point of View".

So, my conclusion will be influence people with all your ability in the BEST way if you can. Since there is no universal fine-line where we can define, "Good" or "Bad" influence. Do stand firm in what you believe and influence according to Your BEST ways and methods. :)

P.S: i didn't steal any resources from people about all the stuffs above but it's something i thought of. :P

Loner!

2007-08-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

Haha. I really can't believe it! I went to woodlands library to study. ALONE! Well, it's kinda productive, amazingly!~~!

Today's kinda weird day, period. Nothing much interesting or whatsoever happen.

So so, weekend faster come faster come!! :D And i think i might be going for Festival Of Praise @ Singapore Indoor Stadium this sunday! HAHA!!

Renewal; "The act of renewing or the state of having been renewed"
I need it, badly.

Stuck-ed?

2007-08-01T22:39:00.000+08:00

I almost compromise school today! :P

School is a little insane today. Some classmates and i were trapped in the boys' toilet!! The inside handle was removed and when it's closed, there is no way you could open from the inside! So apparently, we are stucked for a period(35mins) until some NA dudes came and open the door. HAHAH!!

Well, CG was great today. I'm a little unsettled before CG but i'm glad the people and God got me down. I'm HAPPY today OKAY! :) :) CG games was the usual craze : ELECTRIC CURRENT! Wahhahah! It's crazy, yes, i mean the forfeit :D

BARBERCUE SAUCE WITH COLD WATER! WOOOO!! BEST RECIPE!!

Anyway, the Siling sec newb came and he is really responsive! New seed! God shall make it grow :) I'm really really really soo soo blessed by the people around me, when i'm down they are the one that put a smile on my face. It's not about the things they do, but it's them :)

Thank you, Jesus

Fixed!

2007-07-31T21:26:00.000+08:00

YES YES! Finally got my guitar's tone potiometer fixed! It's been giving me very thin and sharp sound in church. FINALLY! WOOO!

Anyways, today i just found out that my Ibanez is 12 yrs old! It's made in 1995 february. 2857th guitar of the year. HAHA! So interesting. It's losing power!!! Gotta get it upgraded soon when i have the $$$$$

Something i realised. God is always faithful! You know the times where you didn't even do your Quiet Time!? God still bless isn't it? God ALWAYS place us first, even how busy he is going to be. Think about it, should we give more rather than just shoving this Faithful God aside? :)

He never fails :) :)

Testings

2007-07-30T17:43:00.000+08:00

In about 2 hours, the test of God will be coming upon me.

There aren't anytime to allow emotions and feelings to take over but the overflowing of the Holy Spirit. God, if it's your will let it be done. I'm taking up this chance of growth. Studies, Family, Ministry and Music...All are in you hands!

I WANT TO BE CREDIBLE!

GOD HELP ME!
GOD HELP ME!
GOD HELP ME!
GOD HELP ME!
GOD HELP ME!

Beautiful moon

2007-07-29T23:55:00.001+08:00

Just like the usual Sundays. It's STUDYING DAY. Covered chemistry, history, math and part of social studies. Well, just as i was halfway studying, something just "came" and somehow disturbed me. I'm not going to say it here though...
I'm glad that God is still my comfort.
I'm on eagles' wings.
He doesn't faint or grow weary :)

On my way back home, i was amazed, awe-struck and captivated by the moon tonight! It just looks so so beautiful!! It somehow brought a smile to my face. :) :)

How beautifully had God created the universe! He placed the moon and the stars in the sky, and allow them to shine out His awesome power. Just how heart-warming is it!

CHEER UP! :)

Proclaim his awesome powers.
I love you.

Wind Of Change

2007-07-29T01:08:00.000+08:00

Woke up earlier today to start the day on a good note! I'd say, i had improved in my "wearing contact lense" skill. Haha!

There's a wind of change this afternoon! Actually my group only have 1 visitor, but God brought in 3 more! 4 of them came! Not only came, but they received Jesus! WOW! Amazing! Anyways, Joshua had been healed from dengue fever! Had a mini celebration with him after D4RE meet. Hope he was touched. :)

Haha, had CL huddle today, after meetings. The funny thing is that we played number game! Then all those really really weird forfeit came out. Different food and drinks, mixed into one cup to form an ultimate dish. Delicacy? I rather not :P Well, i even helped Celine to cleared some of her forfeit. For no reason, i am "forced" by the others to help her! Innocent LOL. Bahhs whatever! After that went to PC bunk to play some crazy card games. Don't really fellowship with this DMM alot, but it's really fun :D

Jesus is my best friend! :)

The way we've always done before...

2007-07-27T13:42:00.000+08:00

I didn't blog yesterday, if you realise. The reason is simple: I didn't want to allow a situation where They can find fault with me and i know i shouldn't have flared up.

I've been really crazy in school recently! REALLY! Starting to enjoy school hahaha! Maybe is enjoy friends in school. :D

It's so interesting when God puts people that annoys you, pisses you off, makes you angry; while also, people who makes you smile, makes you happy, brings joy to your life. It's a blessing when there are people in the "good" category in you life while i think it's NORMAL when there are people in the "bad" category in your life. So much for living a life...

2007-07-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

Today started off really sloppily! I dragged myself outta bed, dragged myself to the toilet, dragged myself back to my bedroom, dragged myself to wear my shoes and uniform, and eventually dragged my way to school.

Anyway, school started off pretty well. They launched the Speak Good English Campaign today!! It's so funny when everyone tries soooo hard to speak much better in the language. Some of them even ended up speaking with a british accent hahahah!
Well, as for me, i started to correct my teachers who speak grammatically wrong!(i don't know whether will i piss them off :P). My english isn't that good too anyhow.
Hahaha Mr Ravin(math teacher/form teacher) thought i haven been doing his homework!! But well, i did them!! :D

Haha today's cg was incredibly fun! We made 2 insane video! One i would call it,"The Jedi, Winnie the Pooh", and the second," Incredible talent".
Here are the links:

Worship was great today, God really used me i believe!
Leading worship and playing guitar is like a every week thing to me. I can get as complacent as a cat and just lead for the sake of leading it! But i CHOSE not to, because people will be bless. :)

Just wanna affirm, few people here. Alvin, Qing Xiang, David and Ben. They have been a blessing in my life! Yes, i used "have" not "had". Although sometimes, we don't 100% get along well, they are still important to me! :)

anyhow, common tests is soo close and my anniversary practises are too near too! I'm prepared, i prayed through about it. God will supply! :)

I wouldn't trade you for silver or gold!

Feelings?

2007-07-24T15:33:00.001+08:00

I should be feeling this way. Had this feeling since yesterday night. I felt empty.
But i trust in God that he will fill the empty void in my heart. Only God knows what this feeling is and why would i feel this way. I myself couldn't even comprehend.
2 songs by Chris Tomlin somehow encourages me.

Everlasting God
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord

Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary

Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary

You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

Made To Worship
Before the day
Before the light
Before the world revolved around the sun
God on high
Stepped down into time
And wrote the story of His love for everyone

He has filled our hearts with wonder
So that we always remember

You and I were made to worship
You and I are called to love
You and I are forgiven and free
When you and I embrace surrender
When you and I choose to believe
Then you and I will see who we were meant to be

All we are
And all we have
Is all a gift from God that we receive
Brought to life
We open up our eyes
To see the majesty and glory of the King

He has filled our hearts with wonder
So that we always remember

Even the rocks cry out
Even the heavens shout
At the sound of His Holy name
So let every voice sing out
Let every knee bow down
He is worthy of all our praise

God take over!

Sleepo sleepy~~

2007-07-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

Today is a slowly going day. Having a perpetual burn by time. I'm sooo sooo sleepy in school! And my mind decided to turn off in the last 2 periods of the day which is 1hr10mins of english.

OMG Alex got high during mother tongue lessons again! Well, he always does. Hehe! We kept touching each other today! :P Crazy man! It's crazy people in school that makes you wanna go to school or else school will be close to a complete burden.

Process of overcoming. Overcoming things isn't easy. It's just still so difficult to overcome things which are not even sin.

Study study!

2007-07-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

Today's my studying day! Woke up at 8am plus and had a bad gastric so went back to sleep until 10am plus plus. Went down to bishan library to study, study and study. My head is gonna blow.

The drizzle-ly walk, back home, was abit emo. It gave me a nostalgia "feeling" which i hated the most! There are some things in the past that are not worthwhile to enter to my futuristic mind. BUT I'M NOT EMO NOW OKAY! THIS IS NOT AN EMO POST!

Anyhow in the midst of studying, i planned my week out. It's rather fulfilling, planned out what i wanna do and what's my focus! Acting on it will be even more fulfilling!! :)
I also made something up myself...

Worship: More than words or just words?
Worshipping without music = Worship
Worship isn't restricted to songs or music only! It's all about God.
Genesis 24:26:Then the man bowed down and worshiped the LORD,
I bet they have no musical instruments back then :P
And worship can be expressive and emotional but it must truth-based.
Outwards expression VS. Inwards expression?? Well, inward will determine outward.
Also, i realised worship songs have many themes! Eg. Adoration, yearning, exaltation, evangelistic, thanksgiving, healing for the heart and praise(exalt). So it's not just only about songs but PRAYER is the center of worship. There's no such theme as "guilt of sin". So worship God with joy even though we are sinners. We all know the Truth sets us it! :)
Also about Quiet Time. Truthfully speaking, most of us would compromise our quiet time sometimes(that's for me too). It's more than taking up your time to meet God...

Quiet Time -> Spending time with God
->Daily Bread
-> Worship
-> Touch from God
-> Refreshment

Haha, remember the first time that you were follow-upped? Your follow-upper probably mentioned quiet time. It's so fundamental yet powerful! :)
Our worship life determines our walk with God. Worship would basically means being humble. A person filled with pride couldn't worship God in a way that he/she will receive a touch personally.
Jesus is a good worshipper of God. He worship through SERVING. Therefore, serving is a form of worshipping.
Luke 4:8: Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Worship the Lord your God and serve him only.' "
A good worshipper serves God powerfully, a mild worshipper serves only with his/her strength, a person that doesn't worships at all serves aimlessly.

For those who read all of the above, pardon me for being overly expressive. Haha, but it's a food for thought. :) OMG, food again! I think i ate too much! Especially bread :P (RANDOM)

Wow-ed!

2007-07-22T00:51:00.000+08:00

I'm wow-ed by God today man! :)

Shall chronological-ize it...
Well, today started off rather abruptly. My dad brought me to nexus. And it's so fun! The music presentation for ESS today was MARVELOUS! HAHA! Samuel = BON JOVI. :P
Anyway, praise and worship was great too! After serving in the worship team for quite sometime(i realised i started playing since last year september during metamorphosis) i felt more relax on stage facing the whole congregation. Playing as the only electric guitarist really challenged my faith. And pride might seep in easier too. Checking my heart motive is really important. Agree to what Simon said,"shun the evil thought." Christian Musicians should be ministered to minister. Really learnt alot from the musicians in YWAM!

Pastor Jeff preached very well! He really can identify with the Youth out there nowadays. I'm inspired by people like him, he is a pastor yet he humbled down to identify with youths by his unique and funny way of preaching. Just as Jesus did not came down for the righteous but came down for the sinners!

Another thing was, i'm amazed by the converts today!! Even JC group had converts!! I saw converts from PJC! Well done!! :D AND....I BROKE MY GOAL TODAY!!! PRAISE GOD!! HEHE!

Went to eat with Yong Le after everything had ended. We bought the Cheesy Curry Chicken from the British Takeaway at Plaza Singapura. Q-ed for very long and we ended up with chicken that are not nicely deep-fried! Got starbucks' Java Chip and chilled at PC bunk.
Haha! Then there's this mrt personnel that came down and somehow scolded us for eating. After that, Zinc's DMM came and we borrowed Joyce's guitar and composed a worship song. It's not done but it will be! Haha i'm tired but refresh!

Life only rock with Jesus!

Levi's man!

2007-07-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

YES!!! I'm overjoyed! Finally got the Levi's shoe that i have been eyeing on!!

Haha, went to queensway shopping centre with Zheng Kai today. I shall call him my "shopping friend". Well, i got myself another jeans! Black black black! WOOO!!

Music practise was great and rather different just now. We didn't just practise but we really worship during the practise. And we even prayed for the Evangelistic Special Service(ESS) tomorrow!

God please move powerfully tomorrow and touch the hearts of the pre-believers! :)

Okay, i shall go meet my best friend(bed) already! Gotta reach nexus by 8.45am! Updates abt ESS tomorrow!!

You are the One.

2007-07-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

I felt extremely bleary and debilitated after CG today.
I'm struck down by this plague of physical weariness once i entered my house.
But once again, i'm impressed by God! :)

Well, school is totally wild today. It's like sleeping session? LOL. It's either the teacher can't teach or the teacher isn't in school.

Haha met Qing Xiang today. Glad to see him wanting to learn from the word of God. I'm encouraged by him. Really! He bought 1 friend to know Christ last week and he is bringing one more this week!! Affirm him for that! People like him makes me wanna run the race even harder!

Anyway, just a question. Remember the last time the word of God hits you like a freight train? Isn't it incredible and it changed your life once and for all? I'm sure as believers, we were "WOW!" by God at least once! I understood the meaning of Quiet Time but i want to understand the meaning of a touch from God. :)

You are the one, you are worthy!
You are the one, i'll serve all my days!

WWJD

2007-07-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

Oh man! I'm falling in love with Unplugged again(if you don't know, it means those acoustic songs). :)

This one in particular,
Wild World by Mr. Big:

Now that I've lost everything to you,
you say you wanna start something new
And it's breakin' my heart, you're leavin', baby I'm grievin'

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there

Ooh baby, baby it's a wild world,
it's hard to get by just upon a smile
Ooh baby, baby it's a wild world,
I'll always remember you like a child, girl

You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breakin' my heart in two'
Cause I never wanna see you sad girl, don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you'll make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's a lot of bad and beware - beware!

Ooh baby, baby it's a wild world,
it's hard to get by just upon a smile
Ooh baby, baby it's a wild world
And I'll always remember you like a child, girl, yeah

Well, Mr. Big is like the best band ever! Such incredible line-ups! Paul Gilbert and Billy Sheehan can play the hell outta everyone! WOW! Haha if you want this song msn me, hehehe!

I'm just wondering, what really prevent incredible musicians(worldly ones), especially rockstars, to have their ego going up. I mean the number 1 killer for rockstars is something call the "Rockstar Ego". Though some have very very high level of ego(shan't mention names :P).
Well, i guess humility should be it. Humility is key to great responsibilities and success. Moreover, being a musician for God is even more important! Anointing flows from God to the musician's hands to the music then to the worshippers. If the musician isn't humble and God-centered, he/she is sabotaging the whole praise and worship! See how one person can affect one whole congregation!!

Talking about musicians, there are many that inspired me. Not only by their skills but character. To name some...
Christian: Lincoln Brewster, Chris Tomlin, Paul Baloche, Marty Sampson, Joel Houston, Reuben Morgan...
Secular: Paul Gilbert, Randy Rhoads, Jason Becker, Stevie Ray Vaughan, Eric Clapton...

Music break barriers, touches heart and stir up emotions. A powerful tool. So pleasee, for all those who sees this(musicians in particular), don't abuse your musical abilities!!!!! WWJD(What Would Jesus Do) if he could play music? :)

Anyways, i'm starting to appreciate the people around me more. They are God-sent! AHH!! :D
Including YOU! :)
Alright, shall stop here. BYEEE!

Confession Of Christ.

2007-07-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

Confessions are turning points of life. Something i discovered:

In the 4 gospel, there are 3(Luke, Matthew and Mark) that have a sub chapter called,"Peter's confession of Christ.

Mark 8:27-30
27Jesus and his disciples went on to the villages around Caesarea Philippi. On the way he asked them, "Who do people say I am?"
28They replied, "Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, one of the prophets."
29"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?" Peter answered, "You are the Christ."

Matthew 16:13-16
13When Jesus came to the region of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, "Who do people say the Son of Man is?"
14They replied, "Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets."
15"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?"
16Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the living God."

Luke 9:18-20
18Once when Jesus was praying in private and his disciples were with him, he asked them, "Who do the crowds say I am?"
19They replied, "Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, that one of the prophets of long ago has come back to life."
20"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?"Peter answered, "The Christ of God."

So comprehensive! Only Peter stood up to confession first that Jesus is the Christ of God. His life was changed from the inside out. So how's your confession like? :)

LOL, i ate alot just now(think so)!! I ate Double Cheeseburger Meal(upsized), Mcwings and Waffle cone. Kinda full. My sheep thought i'm crazy. Haha!

Anyway, ESS is coming!! This saturday!! ESS without friends is like Cheeseburger meals without the Cheeseburger itself!(i seriously think i ate too much just now)!!
I'm pretty amazed by someone, the way she invite her friends. She wrote something behind the invitation cards for each of her contacts!! Which means that if she have 10 contacts, she would have written 10!! So much commitment! Her actions reminds me of, being faithful with whatever we have to advance the kingdom of God. So, i shall invite my friends! Although i'm playing praise and worship, it doesn't gives me any reason not to invite my friends!! :) :)

WAM NIGHT!

2007-07-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

WAM night was marvelous!! 2 bands played and many were ministered! Oh yes, after this WAM night, i am more secure and confident to play on stage! I'm convicted that playing Praise and Worship is not a burden but it's a joy! Privillege to serve and praise and worship the Lord!

I really enjoy playing Praise and Worship on stage for God! Hope i can continue to serve greatly in this ministry and disciple more guitarists to advance the kingdom of God. :)
As i listen to past recording for praise and worship, also looking back since the time i started playing, God had expanded my giftings and also techinically wise! God expanded my pedalboard from 3 pedals to 7!! USE ME USE ME!!!!! :D

God and God alone be praise!!!

Psalms 96!

Yes and Amen

2007-07-16T16:36:00.000+08:00

WAM night is like later OMG! So excited!! Extended praise and worship, i believe there people there will be greatly ministered! Me too!! :D

Haha, finally!! I got my contact lens into my eyes!! I prayed so hard then it went in. Praise God!! HAHA!

Today's school was totally slack! LOL! Last 2 periods are free periods(MT). The relief teacher was uber cool. Then some of my friends and I were playing Truth or Dare. So retarded. Well, that's school life anyway!

Alright, shall see whether i'll be online tonight. If yes, i shall post about WAM night! :)

School!

2007-07-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

This afternoon met up with Ezekiel. It's been a long time since we caught up together and talk. Great to see that he is still doing well and strong. He is still the same as ever! So crappy. LOL

Went to study at Bishan library today. Yuen Han is soo funny! He stared at a question for like 30mins or so. After that he started to stare at a pen. And he wants people to sms to ask him whether did he STUDY!!!! Joke of the Day! Haha! It's kinda great, complete my tutorial and studied physics and SS. I shall study every sunday due to the upcoming busy weeks. I'm trying to plan for a weekday for studying.

Anyhow, i'm so excited for tomorrow's WAM night! It's extended praise and worship! And it's OPEN TO ALL!! Haha! It will be ministering! (:

I was just thinking, how do we view problems and situation. Positive view? Or negative view? Our view and our process of decision making really makes a difference. We act upon what we believe and trust. For example,'If you don't believe Jesus is real then will you still continue to serve and worship Him with all your heart, soul, mind and strength?'.
Our point of view could be lethal. It possibly means that if you keep on having a point of view that God isn't there to help you when you're in need, then in the end you will really feel that God is not with you. It works like faith. A faithless person can't reap in the kingdom of God!! Be a optimist for God and you'll reap. Why let problems and situation manifest you when you can allow the God that create you to manifest instead?? (:

Hebrews 11:6
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

I will boast!

2007-07-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

This week was a fruitful week! As mentioned on my post last sunday, i knew this week will never be the same! (:

God turned the tides! We have 2 admiralty sec converts today! I really wanna thank God for David Sentosa and Qing Xiang for their labour in the Lord! God didn't shortchange them!! As for myself, the evaluation helps me to improve myself this week and being more effective. God is EXTREMELY EVIDENT in my life this week. WOOO! Anyways...Something i came out with this week:

Assurance from God -> Faith to believe -> Giving to God -> Passion -> Desire -> Fruits.

It's some sort of chain reaction. Assurance affects faith, faith affects your giving so on and so forth. Having the fruit of the spirit more means growth!! It's normal to grow!

The anniversary is so far but yet so near. Practises will start from 30th July onwards, which will last like around a month so. Meaning every monday i have to go to nexus for practise. Studies, ministry, family and music. It's gonna be tough juggling all those but i'll have faith! I shall have positive perspective about it. IT'S A GROWTH PERIOD FOR ME! Go for it, Sherman! (:

As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God - Psalm 42:1

Evidence of God

2007-07-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

There's this ultimate battle in the morning between school and my bed. I was procrastinating. I felt like skipping school but i didn't! I'm glad i didn't! Haha! School's damn slack today, even my form teacher gave us a free period! :D

MAIN HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY! :)
After school, Alex, Alvin, Leonard and I, went to View Rd. For your information, View Rd is the location of an old mental hospital in woodlands. The place is extremely rundown. Leonard mentioned that there's a hole outside another gate. So we went out of that gate, walked up a small hill to a house which seems like some storageroom or watchhouse. No idea at all! Thank God it's afternoon, or else it will kinda creepy.

There's this hole in the house. It's uber dark down there and there is no ladder down. So we threw some lightsticks down the hole to feel the depth of it. It's like around 3 storeys deep. Of course, i won't jump down to explore!! LOL.

We went to the back of the house and there's this other hole which looks like the well that sadako came out in The Ring. Haha, that's the closes i could express. Well, me being the daredevil, decided to go down first. This hole is accessible, going down by stepping on the huge, thick pipes. It's complete darkness down there, so i ask one of them to pass me a lightstick. I was shocked! I am standing on a platform, below me would be some sort of sewage or whatever. I looked to my left, around 30metres away, there's this sector thingy with lightings which have the word BOB on the wall. It looks like those mad scientist lab.

I threw a lightstick down from the platform i'm standing. It's about the same depth as the other hole. Similiarly, there's no ladder down!!! ARGH!! Or else i could have went down! I burnt some pieces of paper and threw it down. The place is huge! When we're leaving, some people came! They have torchlights so we borrowed from them and tell them about our discovery. With torchlights down there, it's a much better view. No amount of words could describe that eerie place with history that are not made known to us.

We went back to the hospital, and walked around. Bats are flying all over the area. There are so many rooms. The design of the place seems to me that it is about 30 yrs old or so. We went to the rooftop and start making a din! LOL, we took some joke videos and took some picture with the beautiful scenery. I would say the view was magnificent and the environment was peaceful. At night would be quite creepy without company though. Great time to spend Valentine's with your loved ones there on 14 Feb! Can look at stars! :D *TIPS* LOL kiddin.

God have been faithful! 2 visitors tomorrow! God please! Touch their hearts through the people and the sermon! :)

Psalm 34:10

Less of myself and more of you

2007-07-12T20:25:00.000+08:00

Ahh! I'm so tired now! Closing my eyes brings me closer to paradise. LOL.
I have finished meeting 3 sheep seperately since this afternoon!! I felt so accomplish and refreshed!

Anyway, school today was painfully long. Yes, i said PAINFULLY! The periods are slack and boring! It makes you wanna doze off during lessons. I've been trying very hard to stop entering the dreamland, time and time again i failed to!!! :/

OMG during mother tongue class, we have some analyse test. We're suppose to draw a sun, river, snake and a tree on a piece of paper. After my teacher collected all the drawings from the class, he use it to explain how is our life like. Mine was kinda horrible! LOL! He said i have a huge passion but it's aimless, someone who treats money in a weird way and one who loves to flirt and play with relationship. It's SOOOOOOO FAKE! THAT'S NOT SHERMAN!! Well, alot people say i look like a flirt though lol.

Yesterday i learnt half of, "Jerry C's arrangement of Canon in D major(rock)". Kinda fun song though it's cliche! Shall learn the whole song hahaha, depending on time and my physical capability. I've been having insomnia for quite some time already!!! :(

Hmmm, i was just pondering over some spiritual matters. Think and thinking. But i came to a conclusion i shall STOP THINK!!! I believe God is more evident through our doings than our thinking. Thinking is just brainstorming of ideas whereas doings is the outcome of certain decisions. Yes, i'm a thinker! But i wanna be more of a do-er than a thinker.

I'm glad that finally, there's a visitor this saturday!! Revival starts from ME and You! :)

What are convictions for?

2007-07-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

WHAT ARE CONVICTIONS FOR?!?!?
Think about it.

Caregroup today was marvellous! The new-b from admiralty sec came and 2 visitors from admiralty sec joined us too! It's great to see a small revival! It's gonna blow up, BIG! :D :D

Well, school's kinda bad for me today but it didn't spoil my mood. I decided to be JOYFUL.
Living life less of _________ makes me felt a bit weird. Zzz. Arghh..... :/

Anw, i'm just really convicted about wht DK said in the meeting this evening.
STOP RUNNING IN CIRCLES AND REPEATING MISTAKES!!! LEARN TO RUN STRAIGHT!! Dare to be different! Dare to stand firm for the Gospel! Dare to make a difference in Sphere of Influence!!

Actually in my heart, i really beg to differ from the world. I'm assured by God's promises that he gives according to how much we give to him. HEY! Burn the bridge that leads us back to the world! Destroy it, ruin it! In my heart i know it is worth it to burn that very bridge, how about you?

Choleric

2007-07-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

I realised i'm starting to become more choleric in my english recently. Which might put me at a disadvantage as most of the people in my school are more "cheena". Mandarin is less versatile than english if you analyse properly. There are more dynamics in english. Well...

I can't really comprehend what my new mother tongue teacher is trying to teach/say in class. Mother tongue lessons is like waste of time or i'll call it "free" periods. :)

I was misunderstood by my DM during assembly today! >:(
The whole school is suppose to have temperature taking exercise today. In this case, i didn't bring my thermometer and was asked to stand. There's this guy who was sitting in front of me stood up too. While standing, he was telling me some joke then my DM caught me laughing and he ask me to go to the front. He took it wrongly that, i was laughing because the whole temperature taking exercise was a joke!! How impulsive! But whatever, i forgive him... :D

Went to Yuen Han's CG(christ church sec peeps) today. Glad they found a good location for CG! And i'm having my CG tmr at David house. Pray that it will be a great cg! I WANT SOME REFRESHMENT!
:) :) :)

The Day of BOSS GE-7

2007-07-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

Today met the street convert from admiralty sec. He is damn funny, very easy to make fun. BAHHH.

Anyways, the main highlight of today will be my new Boss GE-7 Pedal(Graphic Equaliser). I got it for 90 bucks which is quite cheap. It's been sometimes since i got a new toy. :D
Shall use it the first time on WAM night! WOOOO!

I WANNA STUDY!! WHO WANT TO GO STUDY WITH ME! :D

CALL ME!! PLEASE PLEASE!!

by the way, i realise my attention span is very short